Each Day Brings Us Closer Together, and Threatens to Push Us Apart.
With each and every day, I grow closer to my Love. We share not only our time, but our hopes, dreams, and fears, as well. Time with Dang is the best. There is nothing better that I can be doing than sharing with Mama. And this is what we want, right? The passing of time is what is bringing us closer, for it is with time we fall deeper in love. Yes, but this blessing is a curse, too.
As we fall deeper in love with the passing of each day, we grow closer to the day I must leave for South Korea. I face this day with dread. Every day, I remind myself that I still have time with Dang; but each time that I do, I am also reminding myself that I have one less day than I did yesterday.
Life is that way, I suppose. The good comes with the bad; there is no separating one from another. I say this with a sigh. My head hangs sadly. I want to cry at the time that I am the happiest man alive.
Mama, I want to hold on to every day. I wish that I were a god who could control time and space…. I would command the days to hold still. I would have this time to last without ending, but that’s selfish of me. Maybe, I’m not seeing the full picture through the painful thoughts of leaving you.
When I do leave, we move closer to our wedding day; we move closer to the rest of our very long life together; we move closer to Dom, Destiny, and Delilah. When I think about that, I wouldn’t put off tomorrow, because tomorrow holds so much joy and promise for us.
This is the hardest lesson love has ever taught me: you must embrace pain with joy…. you must be brave enough to feel freely…. you must cry in order to laugh. It’s part of the package deal, and I have to face that.
Dang, I say this for the whole world to hear: I LOVE YOU- passionately, wholly, and completely. I dread the day I must part from you for that short season, but I celebrate what we are moving toward.
Again, I LOVE YOU, and I will carry that to South Korea, and all the other ends of the Earth, in my heart. We may be separated by space, but our love will never fall away from our hearts, and because we have genuine love for one another, we can never truly be that far a part.
Love binds, and love draws us nigh to the one we adore.
