I Feel Even More Lost than Usual.
My Love, Dang, is gone to the south of Thailand for the week to be with the family as they mourn the death of her grandmother. This is a somber time, and Dang is attending to important business this week- saying goodbye to her grandmother and consoling her family as they mourn their loss.
Although, I would have nothing less than Dang being with her family in this time of need, I miss her terribly, for I can’t really talk to her while she is south. There is no internet at her mother’s and her cell phone works erratically, at best, when she is there.
She left Friday, and I’ve been lost all weekend long. I don’t know where it went, but it is time for me to lay down and awaken tomorrow morning to a new week. Of course, I’ve not seen Dang in 2 months, but I talk to her daily. We email, IM, and Skype all the time…. I spend a good deal of time with her.
I’ve found that she keeps me grounded, and that, rather than distracting me, she gives me focus and purpose. I’ve not had that this weekend, and little has been accomplished. I barely even got my small apartment cleaned. Thankfully, I did manage to get my schoolwork done, but barely.
Now, I just have to make it through the week without her. She’ll be home around the 7th. I’ll be o.k, I suppose, but I’ll feel every painful moment of her absence anew each and every second until she returns home.
My prayers are with you my Love!!! My heart is awaiting your return. I wish that I could be there with you and for you, and I am sorry that I can not and am not.
