I Just Missed Missing the Fourth!!!!
It is so very strange… I am so out of synch with my home country, the U.S, of course. Just a few days ago, it was the Fourth of July, and I almost forgot all about it. I didn’t even think anything about it until it was almost over.
Fortunately, I was reminded by my family. As it was ending here, the Fourth was just beginning in the U.S. As a side note: I think the the Fourth is only the Fourth when it is the Fourth in the States. So, even though, I was late in realizing that it was the Fourth, I didn’t really miss it, because of the fact that the Fourth occurs on U.S. time.:)
This brings me to something interesting. I’m all out of whack. As I mentioned earlier, I’m out of synch with the States, but, on top of that, I don’t know what’s going on in South Korea most of the time. I’m a foreigner who speaks very little of the language, although I’m learning. Their politics aren’t mine; their customs aren’t mine; even their holidays aren’t mine. And, no matter how much I like this place and take an interest in it, up to this point, I’m still quite foreign, as they are to me.
So, I have found myself floating in the ether happily “gassed” most of the time. I’m not talking about being drunk; rather, I’m talking about that feeling you get when you’ve been whacked up side the head by a good, swift kick from a mule. I’m in that place where things are starting to become coherent but still not making sense.
Don’t get me wrong. It’s been a trip. I’ve had a lot of good experiences and surreal moments. Life is what I want it to be- meaningful, exciting, passionate, fulfilling. Even though that’s all true, I need to find more connections to home in the U.S. and Korea. I can’t continue to be so disconnected.
